Sunday, February 20, 2005
I'm so happy. Me and Kevin are going to get back together!!! That makes me SOOOOO incredibly happy. He promised me that once he gets those things sorted out and fixed we'll get back together. Ofcoarse, I'm gonna make him work for it when he is ready to get back with me because he's gotta learn that I'm not a convenience and he hurt me and he can't just come back to me without working for it. But I know he will because I got him wrapped around my little finger! Hee Hee. But I'm still hurt. I still cry every time I'm in the shower or I'm laying down before I go to sleep. And when I'm alone I still cry. It just hurts that I can't be with him right now. I'm just so used to having him there and talking to him on the phone every night for hours on end and being able to kiss him and see him and have fun with him. It just hurts so bad to know that he's not mine. I mean, he is still mine but I can't see him whenever I want to and all that stuff. I know we're going to get back together but I wish that this had never even happened in the first place. Well, I'm gonna go blog hoppin' now.
Luv ya!
Pickle Chick
Saturday, February 19, 2005
I just got back from school. All day long me and Kevin wrote letters to each other and talked to each other. We've worked everything out. He just needs some space and some time to figure out alot of things and get a few things sorted out and while he's doing that we're still gonna talk and be friends. Because he's my best friend other than Mikala, and other than Mikala he's the only person that I can be myself with. And we're still gonna hang out and cut up and talk and write letters to each other and all that stuff. And I told him that I want to know what it's like to be kissed by another guy and to kiss another guy and all that good stuff and I have his permission to go out with other guys ad he promissed me that he's not going to go out with anyone else. I'm going to go now but I'm just soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much happoer now that we're friends again. And we are going to go out again (we've both promised each other that) and when we do, we are going to go EXTREMELY SLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy!
Luv Ya!
Pickle Chick
Friday, February 18, 2005
Kevin's not so great anymore
He broke up with me yesterday. He did it in a letter. Then he did it to my face. Turns out that for the whole six months that we had been a couple and in love, he had been lieing to me. He lied to me about drinking, smoking, his virginity, all the stuff that is the most important to me. See he started acting all depressed and everything Monday and he said that he didn't know why. Each time I would ask him if it was me he would say "no it's not you. I love you." and then he'd smile at me and kiss me. Well, yesterday morning when he walked me to class, he started crying and I just though that he was feeling bad. Then right before my third block class he gave me a letter, told me he loved me, and kissed my cheek. Then I walked into my classroom, set down my books and stood up to talk to Morgan and read my letter. I opened it up, read the first part, and just collapsed. I started crying and all my friends that were in there took the letter and read it and hugged me. My French teacher told me that I could go to the bathroom and that after class we'd all go jump him. I should've taken her up on that offer. Then after that class, we talked and I asked him what was going on and he told me to just forget about that letter but I told him no because that was how he felt. and after school I asked him if he was breaking up with me or if we were taking a break or if he just needed some space and he said "If we break up would you take me back?" and I said, "Yes but it would be awful hard" and then he said, "I don't want to do this but I feel that I need to" I started crying and he kissed me and said, "It's not goodbye forever, I still love you and I always will." and he cried some and I kissed him and said goodbye and he kissed my forehead and told me he loved me. I feel like crap right now and I'm about to go to school and see him and give him some of his stuff back. But I still love him.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
Today was a mostly depressing day. I was rushed this morning after I got off the computer because i wanted to see Kevin and Mikala. Then when I actually got there both of them were all upset and one of my friend's pants got pulled down (boxers and all) by this jerk that also pulled my boyfriend's pants down last Friday. I hate that guy. G2G.
Luv ya!
Pickle Chick
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
I just woke up. I'm so tired. I hate the mornings. now I have to get ready and go to school. uuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggghhhhhh!!
this sucks. but the good news is I get to see Kevin and Mikala. I love them so much! Ya know, I think that the only time that I'm not so perky and hyper is when I wake up in the morning. I just feel like sitting there. even though it only takes me about 15 minutes to get ready in the morning. Hee Hee.
Let's Go! Lets Go ! If you want it you can get it let me know! Iiee iiee iiee!!!
That is probably one of the best songs ever. Kevin loves this song. But what I think is funny is each time that it comes on the radio he starts singing it. But the only way I can get him to shut up is to kiss him. I think that's cute. I've gotta learn some more dance moves. Mikala came over the other weekend and she taught me how to dance (Inever had before) but I forgot half of the stuff she showed me. She is an AWESOME dancer! Well, now I need to go.
Luv ya!
Pickle Chick
I'm sorry my page is so boring. I'm trying my hardest how to understand how to do this stuff but I'm not very good with computers. So I'm just gonna write more stuff about myself. My best friend just changed her hair color. She used to be blonde but now she's kind of this reddish brown girl. She still looks gorgeous. When she had the blonde hair we looked alike and since we're so close some people thought we were sisters or cousins or something like that. Maybe I should turn my hair brown. Nah... nevermind. I like being blonde. And plus Kevin said he likes me like this so I think this is how I'll stay. I love him so much. He's the closest thing to perfect that I'll ever find. I love him and I want to stay with him. And he feels that same way. Infact, (surprise surprise) he was the first one of us to say "I love you" I thought that was awesome. He is the hottest gut EVER. He's so sweet, cute, talkative, honest, charming, funny, he smells good and he's got THE BEST BODY EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cha-Ching!:) He does anything I want him to. He's my first real boy friend and we've been going out for almost six months. I was kind of disappointed on Valentine's Day. He got me gifts and remembered it and everything, but I wanted something that I didn't get. He gave me two of those kissing bears and seven roses(one of them were fake and he said he'd love me 'till the last one died. hee hee!) but what I REALLY wanted was a promise ring. We've talked about me having one and I think he's already gotten one. But I wanted it on Valentine's Day. I talked to Mikala (my best friend EVER) about it and she said that maybe he's waiting for something special like 6 months or something like that. So now that's what I think. Well, I have to go and check my email now. Thenks for reading this for me. It makes me really happy when people visit my page.
Luv ya,
Pickle Chick
This is my first entry ever. I don't know what I'm doing. It's so confusing. I've asked two people for their help and I hope they do. I guess I shoould put alittle bit of information about myself on here. I'm 16, I love the color pink, and I can fit in with just about any crowd. I have a boyfriend that I love to all extremes. He gave me my first kiss four months ago at our Homecoming Game infront of every body. I could've had my first kiss a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time ago but I just didn't want my first kiss to be with someone I didn't love. This is all that I can do for now. I've gotta go type two papers that are due tomorrow. That Sucks.
Love ya!
Becky Baby
or
Pickle
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you
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